Wholly Me Wednesday: Week 14 (10.1.25)
It’s 5:40pm and here I am blogging:) I did intend to start about 20 minutes ago but hey I’m here now and that’s what matters. When I realized the gap in time between when I intended to start and when I arrived here in squarespace it dawned on me that the gap was a result of my undefined head and ajna center. I experience ADHD tendencies and oftentimes find myself mentally wandering, drifting from here to there, getting distracted easily and experience spacing out; I connect this too to my undefined head and ajna centers. This isn’t a bad thing but an opportunity to know myself and create practices and/or bumpers to realign, get back on track, and refocus. For years I’ve made myself wrong for my me-ness and created an infinite to*do list that was filled with things to work on. The reframe of acceptance around my me-ness and opportunity to create practices and bumpers that support me is a game changer to my overall well-being. The reframe supports my mental health, my confidence, my ability to cultivate self-love, my energy, and nervous system regulation.
On Monday I had my 6-week check-up. I was given the clear to return to work which I was super grateful for but was referred to pelvic floor PT as my abs are still seperated and I’m still experiencing pain in my core. The midwife and I discussed the impact of having a c-section which I am now VERY passionate about. I had NO idea how intense c-sections were and the impact it had on a woman’s body?!?! Not going to lie…I turned my nose up to c-section Mamas before having one myself thinking they were taking the easy way out being cut as opposed to pushing but ummm…yeah no!?!? I’d rather deliver vaginally with no meds like I did with my Princess then have a c-section! There are no words to describe the pain and then the lingering pain…6 weeks later I still tense when I sneeze, cough, or laugh too hard. 6 weeks later I’m still wearing my wrap as it soothes my core and too many hours without there’s a slight buzz of pain. 6 weeks later my insides are still healing and coming back together. 6 weeks later I haven’t been cleared to exercise or return to normal activity pre-pregnancy.
Today is day 2 of being back at work, yesterday I returned to the office and today I was able to work from home. I’m super grateful for the opportunity to work hybrid as I missed my baby while I was at the office and today was making calls earlier in the day as I nursed and later today as he laid across my lap sucking on his binky. I’m also grateful to be part of a team that supported my neighborhoods and blocks in my absence and a leader who invited my baby to the office so I don’t have to be away from him on all of my office days:)
Was scrolling on IG today and came across a video that stopped me in my tracks. One video led to another video to another video as they spoke to an area of my life I’ve been having a really hard time in. It was wild to see my real life mirrored through an IG account…like how does she know?!?!
As much as I’d like to continue blogging…the timer on the oven is nearing the 2 minute mark and my family is patiently awaiting dinner so it’s time to wrap this on up.
Until next week…
