Wholly Me Wednesday: Week 18 (10.29.25)
Today is my babygirl’s 7th birthday. She was my youngest before having my baby back in August. Seeing her as a whole little person is an experience in and of itself…
In a weird space as I type these words in bed. I was off on Monday & Tuesday and decided this morning that today I was going to let the last 2 days go and be fully in today and enjoy all today had to offer. My day was going fine until it wasn’t. I shared space with an energy that rubbed me the wrong way and then had a conversation that left me disturbed…
I’ve been working on reframing and shifting so I can be okay with something I’m not okay with. And to be honest…for a hot second I was sharing space with both not being okay and being okay. But what transpired today shined a light on something I wasn’t trying to see and the disturbance is a wake up call. I’m not sure what my next move will be but I see an opportunity to reflect on what it is I truly desire…
For the last week or so I’ve been listening to an audiobook called, “The Votex…”. It’s an Abraham - Esther & Jerry Hicks book. I received a handful of golden nuggets and want to put them into practice first starting with my thought game. My thoughts be wildin out!?!? Those jokers are strong AF and it’s a legit battle reigning em in. Most of the time it’s just easier to let them do their thing but lately I’ve been going toe to toe with them and have been working on integrating new thoughts and tuning down or out when I can…the ones that don’t holistically serve me.
I gave up on dreaming and aspiring to. I don’t know when exactly it happened but I do know I’ve been super indecisive ever since…doing this and then doing that…bouncing here and bouncing there…thinking this and pursuing that…then changing my mind and going there and then leaving that to leap into this and then saying f it and moving over there…then trying to find that thing only to get lost in the other thing over there till that no longer clicks so I shift and move around again wondering what it is I’m meant to be doing.
I’ve realized sOoO much on this quest for something more. And now I feel led to go further inward and discover what it is I truly desire not from my trauma, not from a space of lack, not from my conditioning, not from what I think I should…, not from what others think, not from a space of people pleasing, not from ego, not from look at me, and not from comparisionitis…but from deep within, from the part of me divinely connected to DUGS, from my inner knowing, from my wholeness, from my heart space, from a space of abundance, from my truth…
Time for bed…
Until next week…
