Wholly Me Wednesday: Week Six (August 6, 2025)
I found out yesterday that someone was taking what I shared here and sharing it with my Husband and saying I was using this space as a platform to talk ish about him. I immediately began making assumptions about who it was and their intentions in their actions. I was upset that someone was attempting to use my sacred space and vulnerability to cause strife and discord in my marriage. But then I paused and leaned into my intention of creating this space…this blog is not about my Husband, this blog is not about my kids, this blog is not about my business, this blog is not others…this blog is about me…wholly me. This blog is an opportunity to reflect, go inward, see me, process, hold space, and keep it real. I share it because I know I am not alone in navigating the unfolding of real life in real time. I share it because I want to document my journey, my bloom, my evolution, and my trial and error. I share it for “her”…the “her” who feels alone; who feels like she’s the only one going through it; who is filled with shame, embarrassment, self-deprecation, judgement, and guilt for her past, her imperfections, her shadows, her inability to get right, and the error of her ways; who is stuck; who is depressed; and who is sick and tired of being sick and tired. I share it because I will rise, shine, and thrive…and if I can, you can, we can!
One of my morning practices is talking to my Mom and this morning when we were talking she dropped a golden nugget on me…she said, “you think the way you think until you have a different experience”. Although she was sharing it as a reflection of her own personal journey it resonated deeply with me. Yesterday afternoon/evening was super hard and it rattled me deeply to the point I lost sleep. I’ve been processing and sitting with the depth and breadth of feels it’s created within me. When I enter into these spaces I want to go to my Mom because she’s my person but what I’ve recently begun to understand is her open emotional solar plexus is deeply impacted by my defined emotional solar plexus and where I was created to ride the emotional wave…she wasn’t and my sharing/unloading/venting does not holistically serve her. She doesn’t complain, she doesn’t turn me down or away, and she welcomes me and accepts all of me but I get to learn how to return the favor by no longer bringing her on my emotional wave journey. So today I did not share with her about my yesterday because I see her and I want to honor her and our relationship and I get to utilize other tools and practices to process my yesterday.
Time to lay my babies down and start our bedtime ritual.
Until next time…
